Unbreakable II

First of all, let me speak different. I'm seriously trying my best.

Women are, well, simply and obviously different from men. They see in different perspective, different angle and different belief. They work for different reasons, they sing different lyrics and act different. Though they are different from men, women can be extremely different from each other. Well, most especially at times they have to decide, and say goodbye. Creusa and Andromache. Two wives who had to say goodbye to their husbands who were to go to war, and had no choice but to beg. Ah, of course women are mothers, too. In both cases, there must be more than just being a widow. Of course, they were both afraid of being one, standing alone, working alone, all for the sake of their sons. Yes, a son. Aside from being a widow, they must be, or were really, afraid that their sons would lose their fathers. Seeing your child weep out and cry hard because he is extremely hurt and having a hard time, will be the most painful scene a mother will see, ever.

To share the pain might be a very good idea. Or, perhaps, not. Being a girl, I live the usual way, I mean, just the simple way of living. I smile, I celebrate, I cry, I get betrayed, I get unappreciated, I fight, I ignore, I forget, I forgive. I know everyone else does. Does it mean everyone lives the usual way? I ask myself such questions. I finally understood that I'm not the only one who feels the way I do. The scene of the two women begging for their husbands to stay broke my heart, not just because it's a tragic scene, but because I know that someday, I may come to the point where I have to choose as well. I was afraid. And now, even more afraid, seriously to grow up. Hahahaha. I was moved by how they "begged". So instead of saying I felt sympathy for them, I better say I feel sympathy for myself. Reasonably, because I exist and they don't. I have to be stronger, and be matured enough just to welcome such trials and decisions to make with a smile.

Yes, I felt sympathy for the two, I really did. But as I became a bit selfish and focused about my same view, I learned to set my mind for the better, to be stronger and to accept challenges. I'm pretty sure if you reject problems you can't escape at all.