Unbreakable II

First of all, let me speak different. I'm seriously trying my best.

Women are, well, simply and obviously different from men. They see in different perspective, different angle and different belief. They work for different reasons, they sing different lyrics and act different. Though they are different from men, women can be extremely different from each other. Well, most especially at times they have to decide, and say goodbye. Creusa and Andromache. Two wives who had to say goodbye to their husbands who were to go to war, and had no choice but to beg. Ah, of course women are mothers, too. In both cases, there must be more than just being a widow. Of course, they were both afraid of being one, standing alone, working alone, all for the sake of their sons. Yes, a son. Aside from being a widow, they must be, or were really, afraid that their sons would lose their fathers. Seeing your child weep out and cry hard because he is extremely hurt and having a hard time, will be the most painful scene a mother will see, ever.

To share the pain might be a very good idea. Or, perhaps, not. Being a girl, I live the usual way, I mean, just the simple way of living. I smile, I celebrate, I cry, I get betrayed, I get unappreciated, I fight, I ignore, I forget, I forgive. I know everyone else does. Does it mean everyone lives the usual way? I ask myself such questions. I finally understood that I'm not the only one who feels the way I do. The scene of the two women begging for their husbands to stay broke my heart, not just because it's a tragic scene, but because I know that someday, I may come to the point where I have to choose as well. I was afraid. And now, even more afraid, seriously to grow up. Hahahaha. I was moved by how they "begged". So instead of saying I felt sympathy for them, I better say I feel sympathy for myself. Reasonably, because I exist and they don't. I have to be stronger, and be matured enough just to welcome such trials and decisions to make with a smile.

Yes, I felt sympathy for the two, I really did. But as I became a bit selfish and focused about my same view, I learned to set my mind for the better, to be stronger and to accept challenges. I'm pretty sure if you reject problems you can't escape at all.

Unbreakable

Growing up. Just a usual phrase, exciting but actually tragic. But no matter how life can be so hateful after such change, no one can actually escape it. No choice but to go on, since there's no point of going back. Aeneas lost most of his family and friends on his journey. He had to be fearless when it's his only choice to survive. Realizing things little by little, I realized that if not for the negative, we won't see the positive. Well, it's usual, that phrase. But actually, if we see the negative, we tend to see more of it because we hate the feeling. When we hate it, we start to care. Like when you're happy, you don't care at all, because you're enjoying it. Smile. As I was saying, victory isn't all about the prize, but about the will and the goal. It might sound silly hearing it from me, but Aeneas who has became so fearless and hopeful in such hopeless situation, had been much stronger than ever. Yes, it's tragic since he lost almost everything. He sobbed, wept out, cried hard and cursed, like you usually do when something very hard happens to you. Getting angry makes you stronger, and that's an advantage. But life, is usually too dangerous and scary, we'll never know what awaits us. Aeneas had a very long, meaningful journey. He experienced a lot and learned a lot. He had a very hard time. He had his most cruel moment of life. He learned to fight for his life. He learned to overcome his fears. Congratulations to all the Aeneas-like people out there. Everyone has gone too far. We're growing up every second and that's really tragic. Hahaha.

Never Grow Up

"He must have had a very hard time." Crazy as it is, I really thought about it. What if Aeneas did exist? I would feel such pity for him. Maybe, thrice the pity I feel for him as a fictional character. Yes, fictional but do you even wonder, if he really existed before, or is he still alive, his soul on someone else's body? Hah. Creepy. All I really mean is, do you even wonder if we are Aeneas, too? Well then, I must pity myself. But Aeneas is not me. If it's Aeneas, I pity him. If it's me, I hate myself and curse life. Everyone knows what fate is. The word fate is notorious, for ruining people's lives. Hahaha! A momentum wrecker, I guess? I don't wanna speak about myself so I'm speaking about Aeneas. His life was like 'usual' but simple. But then, it came the time that he had to choose between his family, his life, his future or his country. Vintage and epic, I agree. He was living his life in the best way. He was happy and fearless. Like a little kid, who only cares about his toys and his playtime, but still curious about other things which he should not get involved to. I'm not saying Aeneas got curious about dying or fighting. Hahaha. But he got new things to get involved, too. He  had grown up, unfortunately. So instead of saying I pity Aeneas, I think it's better if I say "I see life as a tragic journey. It's unfair because it's not constant. I pity myself for knowing it only now. If I knew it earlier, I'd do my best not to grow up. I wish I'd never grown up."

Sorry Sorry

As a student, I admit I do things that are not righteous or reasonable. Even though people me a scholar, I still violate school rules. I'm being honest now. So whatever I put here, I'm being sincere and honest.

From the lowest.
Messiness: I'm not really organized with my things. People that will be involved are my classmates and teachers who'll be disgusted and annoyed with my messy area. The aftermath is that I will be scolded by my teachers.
Carelessness: The reason why I get Math answers or even Chemistry answers or whatever subject it is, is that I'm so careless. And the only one who'll be involved is me myself. Because I'm the one who'll get a low score on quizzes or exams.
Discontentment: I always get jealous with my classmates's scores. Well, I have the reason to get jealous. But instead of improving it for the better, I see competition on my classmates. I'm trying hard not to, honestly. The aftermath of this is that I'll have low self-esteem. And I'll always be jealousy. I'm not really the type who takes things positively, I kinda go with the flow.
Dishonesty: I copy answers from my classmates. It'll hurt me if it's called cheating, but it really is. The people involved here are my classmates, teachers, and the guidance office. The aftermath of this is I'll be scolded by my teachers and I'll be notorious in the whole campus.
SLOTH: I submit projects late, and honestly do HOMEworks in school. But only some. The people involved in here are my teachers, especially my adviser. The aftermath of this is I'll get very low grades, and I'll be notorious for being such a lazy girl.

Honestly, it is supposed to be 7 violations. I even consulted my friend's blog. But I honestly only do these. Though they're only 5 doesn't mean I'm nice. They're still violations. Mistakes. Sins. And I realized that I'm so rude, doing these things, behind or infront of my friends and teachers.

Speech

Lex : Gem, when is your defense?

Gem: I don't know. Because Joyce and Mary... They said we can defend this week but Ma'am said that she will be busy especially on Friday.

Camille: Yes Lex, She said, “You can defend your research during this lunch time”. But it so happened that she was really busy in preparing for the camp.

Lex: Oh, you better get ready for that.

Camille: Lex, how about you when is your defense?

Lex: It will be on January Ma’am April said.

Gem: Oh, how I wish to be like you.

Camille: I think it will be better to defend this December

Gem: Yah! If we will defend now there will be no more worries for this upcoming vacation.

Lex: Are you done with that Prezi presentation that you need for your defense?

Camille: Yes, but Ma’am said that it was not yet complete.

Gem: She said, “You still need to revise some parts and make it look attractive”. How about your visual aids?

Lex: Oh, I remembered I’m not yet done writing my research plan. I’ll just get my materials and finish it see you later guys.

Gem&Camille: Okay bye ~

Forever and a Day

"Can you imagine what would happen if we could have any dream? I wish this moment is ours to own it and that it will never leave."

       Another sunny day. It was lunch time and everyone's going outside the school. Few of my classmates were cramming their homework in Math, while me, I stared outside the windows and watched some students playing volleyball. in the field. "I could do the homework later," I thought. I got my little notebook under my chair and maybe I could write something very creepy or end-thinking-capacity-hey-it's-me thing. I flipped the pages, had a glance on every page I already filled with Korean letters then I saw some sorta imprinted letters in a different, weird style. It's like Gothic and vintage, saying "See me." Who the hell would write that on my notes? Funny, but it felt like the one in Chamber of Secrets, the notebook which Harry used. It answers back. Hah. I did the same way, answering with "Who are you? O.o" And waited for something to happened, closed my eyes for 5 seconds, closed the notebook for 20 seconds but nothing happened. I must admit, I was kinda disappointed. Then I whispered "Renovatio.. renovatio.. renovatio..." I don't know why I said those words, I heard theme somewhere, well, probably. And it WORKED. "Kim Yushin." I startled. Kim Yushin? He speaks in English? Seriously? He lived 2000 years ago or maybe older, in Han. (South Korea) I didn't sound afraid. I felt excitement. "Are you kidding me? General Kim speaks in English? Ha-ha." I think I'm used to this, I've read so much of Potter. "I am the young version, woman. If thee will allow then let me explain everything when you see me. Now, see me." Thee? Lol what. Younger version. Hah. This is a mess. If you all know, one reason why I love Korea is because of its history. Deokman Wangjanim. Seju Mishil and Kim Yushin. I love the three of them. ( I mean, I love them in dramas. But yea. That's it. I love them. Korea's bests.) "I hope you're joking." I wrote with a sly smile. "I wished you did not hope. Come on, we don't have much time. I only have one afternoon." The paper inscribed. "For what? Look, I can't help you with anything." Instead of letters, an image of a rectangular clock appeared. Like what professionals do, it was drawn there like it could last forever. It was 12:35 there in the clock, 11:35 in our room's. "For only until the hour of the dog we could meet, you'll be sage, a promise I'll keep. Tell me the words that caused my salvation, I'll bring you to the place where my name, like stars, has shone."

     "Renovatio.. renovatio... renovatio.."

      Like bubble popping, I appeared out of nowhere in a place named Yours. Kidding. I panicked a little but I managed to calm down myself and searched around the area. So where's that Yushin and where am I? Disappearing without an excuse letter or a word scared me because I'm already forbidden to skip classes.  I didn't even care if this place was dangerous or what. A piece of me wanted to go back, and yet a piece wanted to say. I found no one. Even that Yushin. I started to feel afraid, alone in this place. I walked around and finally  I saw in a clearer and nearer view the old Korean houses, had the chance to touch it and get inside. It was almost empty, there were just like uh, cabinets and clothing. There were mini-sculptures and culprits of their forefathers. Everything, actually, was written in Traditional Chinese. I went outside one of the houses in that area and searched again. "You're here." I heard someone behind. "Annyeong ha-se-yo." He said with a smile, while sounding like spelling out the syllables. So, this is.. Kim Yushin? Fair complexion, pointed nose and sorta narrow eyes. He looked like 16 years old. He was like a feet taller than me. (He's small.) He wore a navy blue, uh, ninja-like dress and probably the uniform for all junior Hwarangs (soldiers for the kingdom) "A-annyeong hashimnikka.." I bowed. Shame on me. He's really REAL. "You do not need to speak formally and speak my language. I learned English by chance. And, I'm only 16." I was right. "So, how did you know me?  I mean, seriously? Look, what really is.. no.." I did not know what to say. I wished I never said anything. "I myself do not know. I can't be sorry, nor feel neutral. So, what do you think?" He asked. "No, nevermind. Why are there no people here?" I looked around and still, no living thing is seen. "Lost, hiding. Afraid. I don't know where are they but maybe I could still remember where my father and I stayed." "Remember? You mean, this thing.. that's happening here already happened when you were 16. I hope I get it right. But I hope I'm thinking it the wrong way." " Unfortunately and fortunately, you are correct." I sighed, took a deep breath and looked around. "Okay, so meaning.. in this place, whatever the name of this place is.. hunters and robbers are after you and your descendants. Many people are going to die. Are you here to change the past? Save them again? Then if yes, you better get prepared. I mean, they're all around the corner, but then, let me hide." I panicked. I knew it. He was trouble. "It's okay. Hush. They won't see us nor touch us. What I really want is for you to see with your own eyes how life comes and leaves, how it cries, how it smiles and how it fades. This is life."

        The robbers and hunters found the hideout of Yushin's descendants and I saw them die without hope, in a very violent way. I can't help but cry on that scene. I stared at him with tears, and a look like 'i-thought-you're-a-famous-general-how-can't-you-do-something-about-this' And we continued walking after the hunters has left. "So where are you taking me next? When you became a Gukseon at age 18? Will you increase my age by 2 years as well? What?" I asked him sarcastically. "Ah, so I guess you already know what triumph means. I won't show you that. I looked nasty when  I was named the Gukseon. I can't believe it." "What? Triumph? I can't believe you." I rolled my still-teary-eyes. "Wanna see the queen?" He asked. "Who? You.. you don't mean..." "I mean it." He smiled.

        We walked for about 10 minutes, passed such hills and rivers and noticed that Yushin has aged a lot, he looked like a 35 year-old guy or up. While me, I looked like a baby potato. So, we were to see the Great Queen Seon Deok, the first female ruler in Korea whom has ruled Shilla with her amazing wit. Since no one could see us, we were able to pass and get inside the castle. It was huge and vintage style, it was kinda different from those I watched on TV. This looked a bit simple and older. We reached through the walls. General Kim said that it's easier and he was used to it. We were finally walking through the floor of the castle. I felt like I was floating,  I can't touch the ground. It was enchanting.  I couldn't believe it was happening. We were able to go inside the queen's room by chance and.. "She's the queen and the one talking to her is Lady Mishil." They were together. I couldn't understand anything from what they were talking about but I had General Kim to translate them for me.

Mishil: Do you think... of me as an evil person? 
Deokman: What? 
Mishil: At the moment, are the people in total dire traits? Or is, our Heavenly Kingdom in crisis? 
Deokman: But... The people live each and everyday with difficulties. 
Mishil: Of course, people live each and everyday exhausted and with difficulties. But the people were like 1000 years ago, they're like that now, and they will be the same 1000 years from now. The meaning of "The People" will always remain the same. 
Deokman: But, if the king would listen to his people, and rule with benevolence... wouldn't that give the people a better quality of life? 
Mishil: Once he starts to listen, then he will get an earful requests. Do this, do that...And if all the request are met, then do you think it will ever end? Nope, he will never see the end of it. However he may rule, he'll never be able to completely satisfy or fulfill a human beings tendency for greed. And yet... those who are clueless can easily utter words about Mishil being evil. 

     Another instance, it was Yushin himself who has talked to her. It was right after he was named the new general of Shilla's army.

Mishil: Yushin Rang, this Mishil is giving you, Yushin Rang, an advice... and that advice is not to make an enemy of this Mishil. I'm saying, will you become one of Mishil's people? 
Yushin: Seju, for a person like me who is lacking and foolish, and to hear your words, It's truly an honor. But I know of one only way in which you can have my services. 
Mishil: What is that? 
Yushin: Just kill me, then you can have my dead body. The only thing you can have of mine... is my dead body. I will not go to you while I'm alive. You've made also an effort to convince my father. And I've heard that you threatened the Princess in her youth. 
Mishil: You are being discourteous. What do you mean about "threatened"?! 
Yushin: Forgive me, but this Yushin is lacking and foolish. Thus, I'm not capable of knowing words besides "threatened". 
Mishil: Aren't you aware of what path you should be taking? 
Yushin: Once again, I am lacking and foolish and also stubborn. The path I choose will be the one of righteousness. If you're done talking, then i will take my leave. Please, do not threatened my father and the Princess ever again. I, too, am giving Seju an advice. And that advice is not to make an enemy of this Yushin. 
Mishil: Yushin Rang, although, a man's strength may appear great. But a man cannot survive on his won strength alone. One needs a little bit... of Heaven's will. 


   It felt creepy for me. I went outside the room and Yushin followed me. He has already returned to his 16-year old look. "Look, I'm getting hysterical. But thank you. I mean, thank you really. For opening my eyes, that this is life. Only our beliefs changed. But not how life take hold on us. I gotta go." 

The Smile which has Captured the World

   The smile of Mona Lisa can be seen in many views and perspectives. Simply by looking at the image indicates numerous meanings, some vague and descriptive. Needless to say, there is no wrong and right, as it based on a sole opinion. Opinions stay as opinions, which deems further arguments and debates rather useless. Grasping many ideals and opinions can open one's mind about this cryptic smile of the Mona Lisa's, which is often found to be captivating and has allured the attention of countless crowds. Though, specifically, we shall discuss about the Mona Lisa and what the smile really interprets.

To begin with, carefully analyzing the smile. These are my own two cents, basically my thoughts. Utmost, smiles tend to be conceiving. Nowadays, most people smile like it's nothing. Then again, one can be so naive and be completely unaware of the facade, the smile. Commonly used to push away others and their worries, constantly saying that they are okay and it is nothing. When in general, you might never know that person right next to you could actually be hurt, truly hurting deep down.

Secondly, this might indicate exceeding joy, which feels the woman's heart. An idea popped out of my mind, that maybe this woman's happiness or feelings is important to the world. Studied and analyzed numerous times. A curious guy would surely want to know how a girl feels. And Monalisa, who signifies true sense of beauty indicated one thing. She's a girl full of innocence and doubt. Or should I say lady.

I like you like LSS

To you:

           Hey. How are you? I hope you are fine. :) It's nearly Christmas and it's getting colder each day. I'm no good in writing romance though I write lots of romantic fictions about my Kpop ego. Okay, so first and foremost, I really do not know how to start this letter of confession. Second, I do not even know if you'll be able to read this. Third, I don't know if you care, or if you even know my name. Do I sound depressed or something? We only have two interactions. Yes, I'm a good counting machine. Are you excited for Christmas? Me? Not, really. It's always the usual ones. Receiving gifts and eating with friends. Okay, I'm more like getting random now. But yes, I'm random.

           Watching you from a far is probably the craziest thing I did, and currently doing. I always learn from my emotions and feelings, those who has faded. Maybe I must be really young for love, I always get curious on hows and whys, not even thinking of whos. Why should I? I always believe that love is not yet appropriate for me, but I just can't stop my heart from skipping thousands of beats for someone who doesn't even know my name. Hah. I mean, no it's not actually skipping of heartbeats, but your presence enlightens the whole of me and give me a wavering feeling, secretly in my mind. And probably in my heart. You're probably curious. I do not know as well. I don't know when all these started, but yes, I like you. OR no, I like the fact that my heart flutters whenever you're around. I like that feeling I just can't explain by words. I like the fact that I like you. And because of that I like you even more. I like you when I see you and now, I like you more even if I don't see you. I hope someday you'll be grateful to me. For what? For liking you.

           If you have a girlfriend then I'm sorry. I doubt that you'll be able to read this but if you do, then you can request for this blog to get removed. I'll do it immediately. Merry Christmas. :) I like you like last song syndrome.PS: Please stop running on my mind. I like you like last song syndrome.

Love,Camille

My Teacher ; My Hero

We find teachers intimidating and strict. A piece of Wikipedia also says:

        And for most students, teachers are heroes.


                           Once, on my way home, I used to wait for my friends from the other section to fix their things and stuff. I stayed in the front of our HE Room because my friend, Joyce was still inside. I was with another friend of mine that time when Ms. Pareja passed by. If I'm going to have a survey, these must be the traits student would answer if I ask them how is Ms. Pareja during class: Strict, serious, SCARY. Well, I know. I admit. When I was in my first year, I really hated her subject. (Woo. It's true. Most of my batchmates, actually.) And some, hated her. (PLEASE. I'm not one of them.) So back to the story, as Ms. Pareja passed by, I greeted her and she smiled then she went nearer and I gave her a slight hug. She then approached me and asked questions about my grades and told me that she heard a news that I got another low grade. She asked the subject. I answered Chemistry and Physics. She laughed a bit, an encouraging laugh and said that those are just easy. I smiled, too and said, "Yes Ma'am. It really is. *blah blah.*" Then she asked me if I have a boyfriend, and I said a big "NO" to her. Joyce then joined in and said that I have a boyfriend from Korea. The great teacher laughed again and said in a serious, concerned voice, "You mustn't be trying hard." I answered, "Ma'am, I'm trying my best, but I think teachers find it nowhere." (I changed some words because the original one might cause some misunderstanding. BUT, I didn't say anything bad. Believe me. LOL.) Then tears started to fall from my eyes.  She laughed again and ignored my tears and say, "If there's a problem, I'm in the Science LAB." I was like "KQNGFAKFLHNAKLAHRGJAK;LSDGRALSGFADGSDGLSGJJAL;GJNMVERIOSTGUJAE[AEGJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" inside. I answered, "Yes, Ma'am. Thank you." Then she left.


                  I can't explain how she touched my heart. But knowing Ms. Pareja, who's a very great teacher, and someone who really is respected even by your scary teachers, and the fact that she almost spent all her life to teach and touch hearts, I can say that it's a great pleasure to hug her, and cry on her care. (Wow words.) I was inspired to do harder that day, though my picking-up skills are really slow and I forget easily the formulas. And even though she said that she's just in a Science LAB if I have a problem, I can't face her. :DD I know that it's my fault for not trying harder and harder. But I'm hoping that someday, I can still meet up with her, and tell her that she's one of the main reasons why I tried hard and got success in my hands.


                I believe that if you won't do your best within your 10 years of studying, you will suffer for the next 50 years or more. So to all teachers, thank you for saving us from that near 50 years of our lives. We are playful, lazy and noisy and we know that it annoys you at some time, and we're sorry if we make you feel unappreciated by not getting the answers right. Please don't be so intimidating sometimes. :) Thank you for worrying about us if we don't understand the lesson very well though it's all our fault and we don't deserve your concern, because you are super heroes. :) HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO YOU ALL! :***** Much love.

The Comedy of Errors (Lol what?)

            The play 'Comedy of Errors' by William Shakespeare - is, ofcourse a comedy. Several days ago, my classmates discussed the characters, the plot and everything. My classmates were all good, honestly. But because of the names, it was really confusing, since I'm not really familiar with the language, and how people lived like in the year it was played. And I actually realized how Shakespeare wrote his plays, well, in his own unique way. But it won't change the fact that it was really confusing.

             Uh, so that's all I could really say. I was confused by the characters itself and I wasn't able to finish the discussion. So, hehehehehehe. :DD

TGTNCAE: Thank Goodness There's NCAE

                  A science-inclined student, is usually known for being well trained, and preparedness for new challenges and stages that will soon grab you without knowing clearly. Recently, we had our National Career Assessment Examination, or basically, NCAE. Our adviser told us to calm down for it will help you a lot in choosing your future course, or what you really want to do for the next 50 years of your life. I was thinking about it too much, that I dreamed about it the night before the day of exam. (So, I forgot the dream already. Sorry.)

                  I was looking forward to the final part of the exam, the 200-item test. It's composed of lots of letters S and O. I forgot how it was cold. But I realized while taking the exam that I like radio commentating, cosmetics, though I put lots of "Not At All" or letter D, in the questions. I found some questions funny, too, because I imagined myself doing such things. Eeeeww, those acts would be really awkward if I'll be the one to do it. I'm still thankful that the NCAE had an effect to me, because I personally thought I'll never know what I really want, because I do want EVERYTHING! Thank goodness. Lol.

To be or not to be

To be or not to be, that is the question

Lots of choices, lots of misconceptions

Of all the people to trust

Why, oh why? Do I know you?

To be or not to be, like life or death

I won't do this, many will suffer.

I'll do this, and I won't be able to face the world

Whatever it is, still your choice

To be or not to be, like trees in forbidden forests

To be your friend, to be a stranger

To believe you, or to be someone else

Someone you'll love, someone you'll believe

Speak now or forever hold your peace.

                Language. It has been a part of you for almost, you know, the rest of your life. Imagine how boring life could be, if language didn't exist at all. And I realized, it feels good to have your own language. I mean, look, if you know you're a good speaker of a language billions of people in other parts of Earth do not understand, that's just awesome! I can prove it myself because I feel the same towards Korean people. -.- But for me who gets curious about every little thing, it's cool to know lots of language. I actually, study Korean and German, and looking forward to Mandarin, Cantonese and Vietnamese next year. Hnnnng. Still,  there's this one thing I'm really proud about. It's with me everywhere I go. My good English. (Well, I'm not saying I'm good. But I speak good English and my WHOLE family are like ASDFGHJKL, go marry an American guy. Eh-eh-eh-eh.)

               My father once said to my younger brother, "If you couldn't be good in any subject, do your best in English. It will help you for the rest of your life." (Mind you, he didn't tell me anything about that. HAHAHA.) English is the language everyone use to communicate to anyone in any country, in any part of the world, except for the penguins and polar bears who live like someone in their planets. And for me who loves Language subjects better than recess, being pretty good in English will help me out on enhancing, even if I'm just studying on my own. I will be someone who won't be afraid to speak my mind, use the clean, correct words and touch people's heart.

넌 나의 남편. 정말 사랑해. 아라써?!

이현우 <33333

Intramural 2012

                 

           Yay. So finally, we had our intramural, or 'intrams' as what most of us students call it. Sports, chess, sack race, tug of war, and a 'beauty contest' I honestly I do not know how is that term spelled, but we had a contest, where in a male and a female will represent each year level. Actually, none of our representatives won. Also, we had a mass demo, by year level, and ours was produced by our fellow batch mates, and if I'm not mistaken, by our class adviser as well. Awww! Ever supportive. We didn't win either. And I won't speak a word about it. :D That would be safer. I was with the group Nine-G, (Wow.), actually our group, composed of nine girls of course! Three from 9G joined chess, two joined basketball, Allysa Mae and I joined tug of war (But, we left. Or I was asked to leave, and Allysa purposely left, asdfghjkl.) One joined volleyball and one stayed in the cheer leading portion. When it was one's turn to play, we had this chant made by our ultimate KPOP group called Girls' Generation, I felt so funny about it, and glad as well. I saw in us the bond that you won't see in other groups, or friends. Support, cheer, smiles, laughs, encouragement and everything. I loved the way we stalked each other when it's already their turn to play, we screamed, shouted and cheered for them all the way. Just remembering those makes me smile until now.

          Since it was a school activity, of course I couldn't just stay with my girls, of course I got to be away for a while. Basketball. It's like the main game every year. Everyone's anticipating to watch every move the players will make, though basketball girls is just like a *insert your little description here* and the basketball boys, will unexpectedly rock the whole campus. Bayerns versus Chelsea. We're Bayerns and they're Chelsea. The referee whistles and THERE. The game had started. I got my 9G beside me, in the middle of bunches of third years, too. My bestfriend cheered so hard, yelling every player's name though she doesn't actually know them personally. Everyone cheered. We prepared banners and everything we could offer, well personally for Kat and Tin, two members of 9G. (Lol. Told you, we are super doodle supportive. :D) I smiled, remembering the memories I experienced. That moment when I cried in Joyce's back because of what happened in the Tug of War and how everyone comforted me. And the 9 of us, doing the chant "Jigumeun So Nyuh Shi Dae!"  before anyone of us need to play already. And how the third years cheered, had that one voice and goal; to win, to have fun. Realizing how much I've enjoyed this intramural, it's still better than having free goodies from the canteen for a week. I'm not athletic though. I'm not a player. I'm not a gamer. I just loved it, seeing the whole campus as one.

Secret Greetings

             He would call me 'Derp' or 'Squid'  and I'll frown for a little while and he'd mess my hair. And I know he's pretty sure I'm already okay. Sometimes, in school, he'll block me from going inside my room, just to ask me, "Can I help you with your things?" After school, we'd go to some restaurants together, and buy me lots of food, and parfait. We wouldn't care if we'll go home late. We'd stay in the baseball field in our school again for some minutes, and talk about superfluous things. We'd race all around the field, and who ever gets first to the starting line, would guzzle those expensive drinks we both bought. I won once, but he didn't let me drink his. Stupid. -.- I love him, and I love it. During weekends, we'd go to the park. I won't forget to bring my sketch pad and pen, and he'll bring his phone and headset. We'll seat together in a bench, I'll draw anything I see, while he sings any song from his phone, mostly ballads. It's not bad at all, he sings from his diaphragm, he has this song conveyance, I bet he offer every song he sings for someone. I looked at him once while sketching and he was closing his eyes. I started to sketch the figure of his face and his pointed nose then he suddenly woke up and saw mine. I panicked and said, "Uh, I want to draw anime." So I drew those pointed hair and cool eyes. There was this one time that he boycotted a tryst with his friends because it was my birthday.  I wasn't happy about it. In fact, I was scared that his friends might get mad. During rainy days, he would get me out of my room and we'll run outside the house, and we would play with mud and scream out loud as if rains only happen once. "Babushka." He'd say a smile when we got to part ways in school, meaning 'goodbye' or what. And so I told my friends, babushka. When I talk about Kpop, he'll have that vacuous expression on his face. But, he's continuously handsome, just like the waves of the ocean, it wouldn't stop. He hated rambunctious areas, but managed to deal with it when he reached high school. He was a heartthrob. And honestly, I was jealous and worried he would forget about me and stop hanging around with me. He didn't do that, of course he wouldn't.


               Being a younger friend, he treated me like a little sister, just as how he treated his consanguineous siblings. Students in the campus often misunderstand us for being so close. I always get bullied actually. Some girls would show me a picture of an epitaph, with my name inscribed on it, with blood as well. He's punctilious, very exact on everything he says. That's why people around him get easily hurt and think he's a snob and a bully. Once I felt like shrinking and disappearing because of what some mean girls said about me, he said obnoxious things about them, how they look, how they speak and everything. Hng. Indeed his tongue is like a haft, it's not yet hurtful but makes people collapse to death. Remembering all those thoughts and memories, his silent death cursed my heart again. He'd been so quiet and we weren't able to talk. I regret everything, I surely do, including that truth that I loved him. And it's hurting me until now, because I still love him. I wonder if he knew. I wonder if he shared the same thoughts as mine. Appease his soul. This ephebe whom  I shared almost a part of my lifetime.

She's Beautiful; But she doesn't know.

Complete(w/EngSub)-SNSD

Never thought I'd lay my bare, imperfect eyes

On someone who doesn't know I actually exist;

She's different from head to toe, each and every style;

She's a beauty, yet too humble to be narcissistic.

She has lots of insecurities, sadness and bitterness.

Haters gonna hate, but haters won't hate her.

The tallest among the most beautiful goddesses

Oh how I love to pinch those cottons on her cheeks!

Like cream colored ponies, her complexion tastes vanilla.

Schnitzel, noodles, fries, burgers, kimchi and all,

Shikshin, others call her, for being like a food Godzilla;

Though her eyes are dark, I see flowers during fall.

A luxurious flower petal, indeed she is. 

With her beauty from the inside to out.

A typical teenager, lazy, messy, weak in Math!

She made me feel special, thankful for who am I. 

Choi Soo Young: She's beautiful. <3

In a show. There's food in front of her. Kkk~ :)

Her birthday. :"">

The audience greeted her~ 

She's who she is. :)

Derp! Kkk~!

Pre-debut :)

In Japan~

A twelve year old Soo! 

Derp duh. 

I heart you too! 

A sexy weather forecast! Kkk~

Okay. I hope you have time to read. XD

1. The meaning of the name Choi SooYoung is Luxurious Flower Petal

2. Soo is the third youngest member but she is the tallest of them all (170 cm AND GROWING).

3. She doesn’t call her unnis “unni”. (Nobody can be as badass as Soo, yo!)

4. Jessica gave her the English name “Summer”.

5. She eats an average of 6-7 times in a one day.

6. Soo never had a boyfriend.

7. Taeyeon busted out one of her sleeping habits: SLEEP TALKING.

8. Aside from Sunny, Soo is also one certified gamer in SNSD.

9. She can eat 3 scoops of ice cream in 5 minutes.

10. She was once asked for a dare in a variety show to put on a swimming tube and do the Gee crab dance in a coffee shop. She was very shy at first but she managed to finish the task amazingly. The dare is taken as a prank in relation for her name (sooyoung) which is also the Korean word for “swimming”.

11. It was revealed by SuJu that Sungmin of Super Junior is closest with her and Sunny that on SuJu’s 3rd album, Sungmin mentioned Sooyoungie on his Thanks To part.

12. Soo has worked many times with Kangin of Super Junior (from her predebut days in MNET VJ Chat to the movie SoonJung Mahwa and many other radio shows in between)

13. One of her pastimes include discovering new facial expressions when she faces the mirror without any make-up.

14. Sooyoung’s bestfriend is her sister, Soojin.

15. She won the Most Comic Talent award during the 2009 Girl’s Award.

16. In relation to that award show, DBSK was quoted saying that “She is really fun to be around and has that special something that makes her stand out”.

17. She has a huge crush on Jo Insung and Lee Sueng Gi

18. She likes TALL men with broad shoulders, good backsides, and V-shaped back.

19. She goes fangirl crazy over VOS.

20. Comic-writer Kangfull made a comic for Sooyoung. Apparently, Sooyoung sent him a fan e-mail before. Kangfull was so impressed with the way Sooyoung talks (very mature for her age) that he replied to her fanmail. Years later, they finally meet when Sooyoung starred on the movie adaptation of Kangfull’s Manhwa.

21. Nicknamed Cheerful Princess because of her charming personality. She is considered one the friendliest members in the group.

22. She can spot fancams easily and she acknowledges them by smiling/waving/sending winks.

23. Soo has a penchant on keeping things even though they’re worn out when she really likes it.

24. When she was in middle school, she liked a certain guy that on Valentine’s Day she planned on giving him chocolates. When the great day arrived, she was so shy to reveal her feelings that she ended up not giving the chocolates and bringing it back home.

25. A TRAX member taught her how to play the drums while Sungmin taught her how to play the guitar.

26. She can play the piano as seen on her performance during the Chunji Concert.

27. She was part of the Jeong Shin Female High School choir back in her high school days

28. Called the Home Shopping Queen because she can perfectly imitate the hosts of Home Shopping Channels

29. She feels that she is not beautiful and that only ahjussi-fans like her.

30. Nicknamed ShikShin by the other SNSD girls because of her big appetite. ShikShin literally means FOOD GODDESS.

31. She can speak Korean, Japanese, and some English

32. Her favorite place to visit is USA.

33. SNSD is her first debut as an artist in Korea but it is also her second debut as an artist (as a whole). Her first debut was in Japan as a member of the duo Route 0.

34. She lives with her Mom, Dad, older sister, and a little dog

35. Her blood type is 0.

36. A devout Christian, she is also close friends with Jaeson Ma (pastor/musician)

37. She sang the trot song “Kkok”, which means Sure, for the show Working Mom with SNSD Yuri

38. The other members refer to her as the girl who “tries hard to be funny”. (LOL I beg to disagree)

39. While in Japan, she became close friends with BoA and Sunday from The Grace as they too were working in Japan as singers at the time.

40. Soo is currently the youngest member to win in the game show Star Golden Bell.

41. Aside from ShikShin, the girls also gave Sooyoung the nickname NaSoo which means interrupter.

42. Referred by some netizens as Anti’s Darling as she is the most loved/least hated member by antis. Most of whom credit it to her down-to-earth attitude and naturalness.

43. She has the least thread posts in the STAND forum.

44. She likes spicy cabbages. (kimchi?)

45. Her favorite season is Winter. (to think that her English name is Summer. LOL)

46. She is a big fan of Stacie Orrico. She made a cover of Orrico’s Stuck (pre-debut days) and I Promise (with Jessica).

47. Soo rates herself a score of 70. (Why Soo, why?)

48. Between love and friendship, she chooses the latter.

49. On an interview, Sooyoung was asked the question “What would you say to the people who truly love you?” and she replied “Little fool! I love you!” (violent side taking over again)

50. On the same interview, she was asked how many boy liked her and she said “5, but they don’t really love me, just used me to dispel loneliness.” (awww..  )

51. The name she would want to give her future kids would be either Hid or Cinderella.

52. Her favorite number is eight. Her Jersey Number 24 on Oh! was explained when the members exposed the fact that she wrote it because she wants to marry at age 24. Soo reasoned, “It’s just a wish. If I get married, then I can’t do SNSD anymore, so I’ll flip the numbers over and marry at age 42.” (LOL)

53. “Let’s not procrastinate” is her motto.

54. Her favorite song from Girl’s Generation is “Complete”.

55. The longest time that she liked a guy is a month and a half. (hahaha ROFL)

56. Taeyeon calls Sooyoung her friend, dongsaeng, companion, and husband. She used all four words when referring to Soo during the Rolling Paper activity on Maybee’s Radio

57. Sooyoung admitted on Oh SangJin’s radio show that she is more acquainted with actors/actresses than music idols.

58. One reason for #57 is that most of the people in her Bible Study Group are actors/actresses. Those she have mentioned were Jung Joon, Sung Yuri, Lee Jin, Ok Juhyun, Na Eol, and Kim Ajoong.

59. Aside from sleep talking, she sometimes “invades” other members bed. Back when she was still roommates with TaeTae and Yoong, she woke up feeling uncomfortable only to find out that she’s in between her and Tae’s bed. (LOL)

60. She is close friends with Lee Yeonhee. Their friendship started way back their pre-debut days when they auditioned for the Korea-Japan Idol Casting. They were reunited after many years for the movie Soonjung Manhwa.

61. There was this incident during a fan meeting when the manager was rushing a fan who is getting signatures from the girls. Sooyoung insisted on writing the fan’s chinese name as a token of appreciation for the fan’s support.

62. She was given the title “Kim Yuna of the Entertainment Industry”.

63. Sooyoung has no dance music in her mp3 player since she likes ballads so much.

64. Her favorite color is pink.

65. Tiffany shared a story on a radio program on how during their trainee days, Sooyoung saved her mother’s number under Jo Insung’s name. She would then get messages saying “What are you doing?”, “Did you eat?” and all were from “Jo InSung”. She got busted when “Jo InSung” called and it was her mother’s voice which was heard from the other line. (ROFLMAOLOL)

66. Yoona and Tiffany revealed that Sooyoung has a crush towards Go Soo (an actor from Will It Snow For Christmas). She denied at first but after Yoona revelead that she had made Go Soo a cellphone charm, she immediately agreed while blushing (LOL). She even said that just thinking of him makes her smile. (HAHAHA FANGIRL!)

67. Sooyoung invents nicknames for the girls. She calls Hyoyeon, Hyosukie; Taeyeon, Taengie; Yoona, Yoongie; and Seohyun, Makdoongie (cute way of saying maknae).

68. Aside from Stacie Orrico, Soo also revealed that she is a fan of Jason Mraz. (oh, could listening to foreign artists be her way of practicing her English? How lovely!)

69. Soo pointed out during a Sukira guesting that one of the things she worry about herself is that she has too much hair. This must be related to her UFO reply when a fan asked why she cut her hair (during Genie promotions) and she answered “I want it to dry fast”.

70. During the same Sukira guesting, the girls subtly hinted that Sooyoung once had a crush on Eunhyuk during their trainee days. (HAHAHA)

71. If she wasn’t in SoShi, Soo said that she would have been a designer.

72. Sooyoungie expressed sadness on being nominated as #1 on the Most Intimidating Member. She said that “They say that I seem like the most intimidating but I’m really quiet at the dorm.”

73. Hyo supported Soo’s statement by saying that Sooyoung is actually the Most Obedient. (looks can be really be deceiving)

74. Sooyoung cares for Maknae so much. She always speaks highly of Seobaby and she almost always lets her win on games.

75. Soo’s mom wants a boy so she is raised like one. Her mom made her wear pants and she used to sport a boycut back when she’s still a kid.

76. On SBS Strong Heart, Sooyoung confessed about an incident involving a toilet. Her whole family was in a Seoul subway stop when some fans took notice of her. Sooyoung who wasn’t all decked out in her stage apparel and makeup, ran into the bathroom to hide (she was afraid someone would write that she doesn’t look that good in person). The two fans were knocking on the door but Sooyoung kept on insisting that she is not SNSD’s Sooyoung and that they’ve got the wrong person. As they were losing hope, suddenly Sooyoung’s mother yelled “CHOI SOOYOUNG! HURRY UP AND COME OUT!” (LOL). Of course, with her identity confirmed, no fan would just leave. Sooyoung said, “They slipped a piece of paper under the stall door and I just took it and quickly signed it. They eventually went away and I was finally able to get out of the bathroom!” (she is so worried about her appearance lol)

77. Her favorite ice cream flavor is chocomint.

78. Apart from her weird sleeping habits, Sooyoung was once caught pouting her lips (as if kissing someone) in her sleep.

79. Sooyoung and FT Island Jaejin are close friends.

80. Acting in a historical drama is one of her greatest dreams as an actress.

81. Sooyoung mentioned in SGB that her first love is an oppa whom she had seen on the streets. (LOL) She was in middle school back then, and the guy was in high school. It was love at first sight for her that she admitted following the boy at times. She was heartbroken when she saw the guy with his girlfriend. She calls the guy her Romeo and until now, that boy doesn’t know about her feelings at all. (awww)

82. In an episode of Wonderful Outing, Yuri said that she gained 5 kilograms during their Unforgettable Marriage days because she was always eating along with Sooyoung. She gained weight by following the ShikShin’s eating schedule which is 7 times in one day.

83. She sang the opening song ‘I Am’ for the Korean version of the anime InuYasha.

84. Sooyoung and Yuri recently attended a class party with their ChungAng classmates. For many reasons it’s hard for celebrities to take part in these events with other regular students. The regular students are usually distant with the celebrity students but a classmate has been praising the girls for coming to school whenever their busy schedule permitted and mingling together with other students.

85. Apart from Sungmin, she is especially close with Hankyung of Super Junior. She was even quoted saying in a playful manner that “Hankyung-oppa is Made in China.”

86. Her Japanese name is Che Suyon.

87. Known as the group’s megaphone, Sooyoung is almost always the spokesperson during interviews, whenever the group receives awards, or even other not-so-good things. Her flair for words is definitely one, if not her most, renowned talents.

88. On an interview in Chosen, Sooyoung is referred to be the most well-mannered and respectable amongst the members.

89. Along with this, Yuri was quoted on saying that “More than anyone, Sooyoung is the member most devoted to justice and what’s right. When there’s something that everyone else hates to do, she’ll get up and do it, and if there’s some sort of conflict, she’ll get up right away and set it straight.”

90. Sooyoungie is a Harry Potter fan.

91. Sooyoung and Super Junior Siwon are close with one another. They took acting lessons together so they talk a lot about acting. Siwon even introduces her as his blood relative to others and they promised each other that when one of them is acting the other would make a cameo.

92. She is interested in photography that she often ask the girls to model for her as she take their photos. In a visit to the Soshi dorm, it was revealed that the refrigerator was plastered with pictures that Sooyoung took,

93. During KBS 2TV’s “Win/Win” aired on April 20, the girls along with Kim Shinyoung voted Sooyoung as the member who has the prettiest face without make-up.

94. It was found out on an episode of Star Golden Bell that Sooyoung has the slimmest waistline among all SNSD member. Tiffany measured her waistline and it’s a farkin’ 22 inches!

95. She is a fan of the japanese drama Hana Yori Dango. (maybe she can relate to Tsukushi’s character keke)

96. When Taeyeon proclaimed her decision to step down as leader of SNSD and went crying to her room, it was only Sooyoung who went to her immediately and asked her what is wrong. Out of all the members, it was only with Sooyoung that Taeyeon cried her heart out.

97. When Sooyoung had her vacation in New York, she was spotted talking with a chess playing man in a park. The man was lonely waiting for someone to play chess with and Sooyoung talked and comforted him, saying that she has no worries in life because she believes in God.

98. Sooyoung is good in imitating the members signatures that sometimes, the members ask her to sign in behalf of them. The hardest signature to imitate for her is Sica’s. XD

99. There is another thing that Sooyoung loves more than food aside from her family: her SNSD sisters. During their recent break where she spent a vacation in USA, she mentioned about how she thought about Sunny while she was eating a hamburger in New York.

100. She is the only Asian to make it into the top 10 barely legal hotties list of Complex Magazine (published online on July 14 2009).

101. When they go to the noraebang, Sooyoung and Yoona take their shoes off and then go singing and dancing on the sofa. And Sooyoung doesn’t let go off the mic. LOL

102. She has close friendships with Yunho, Yoochun, and Junsu of TVXQ. Of all three, she’s closest to Junsu the most since they’ve trained together for a long time.

103. Star Golden Bell host Kim Jaedong is close with Soo Young. He always asks Sooyoung to attend SGB and that he even has her number on his phone.

104. Sooyoung eats straight right after she wakes up. (SHIKSHIN!)

105. There was a time when Sooyoung was so hungry that she went into a Korean BBQ house ALONE and had two servings of beef and dwenjjang chiggae (bean paste stew). Apparently, her record is 6 servings on her own!

106. SNSD was introduced as a new group during a recording of Super Junior’s appearance on M.net School of Rock at Jung Shin Girls High School, the same school that Sooyoung, herself has attended.

107. Jessica and Sooyoung are very close with one another since they were those who trained the longest among all the girls. They even tried once to set up a three-girl group called called Goneko, but the plans fell through.

108. She’s one of the many girls dubbed as the “SECOND BOA”. Apparently, Jessica was labeled this, too.

109. When asked if she would be reborn in any point in time, what time would she want to be, she answered “the time when Jesus is alive”.

110. Sooyoung is considered to be the most experienced among all the members. Prior to being a member of SNSD, she has already debuted in Japan at age 13, modeled for two clothing lines (Chubbygang and Skoolooks Uniform), starred in a CF (Samsung AnyCall), been a VJ (M.Net Hello Chat), and DJed on a radio show (ChunBangJiChuk Radio). Her solo activities after being a member of SNSD starring in a sitcom (Unstoppable Marriage), being casted in a movie (Hello School Girl [Soonjung Manhwa]), recording songs (‘I AM’ Inuyasha OST Korean Version, ‘Only Feeling You’ with The Blue & Tiffany and ‘Kkok’ with Yuri), being a host for a variety show (Fantastic Duo), and being a ramp model for the 08-09 F/W SFAA Seoul Collection – Lee Joo-Young Fashion Show. Not to mention the tons and tons of CFs and endorsements she has done with the girls.

111. Sooyoung has dimples.

112. On Yu Hueiyol Sketchbook, Yu Hueiyol asked her “When was the last time you lied?” and she said she never lies because she is a church-goer.

113. Sooyoung was the first member to know about Soshified.

114. Sooyoung said in Intimate Note that she once invited her members to go lunch with her but got rejected because they were too busy so she just went out with the manager instead. (lol)

115. Sooyoung got exposed by her mom in SBS Junior Show saying that her room is like a garbage can. According to her mother, she leaves a trail of her clothes every time that she arrives home. She would take her shoes first, leave her bag in the living room after that and then she would go to her room. She takes of her jacket, leaves her pants near the entrance then her socks. (ROFLMAOLOL she’s just like any ordinary teenage girl XD)